OWNERSHIP IS HARD WORK!
Did you miss me? I needed to take a bit of a break from being introspective. I’m back! I’ve always wanted to own something. Something of purpose and value. So the perfect place to begin is with my choices.
Being alive is hard work. I’m learning that character is all about ownership. It’s about never placing the blame on others for what happens, even when it seems that I’m not at fault. I’m learning that integrity is about living strictly by the rules of what’s best for all involved in the long run. I want money. Then I get it and it makes a lot of things better. But it doesn’t cure my demons.
Making tough decisions is about ruling out what I want to hold on to, and focusing on what’s best. It’s about priority and discipline. Owning myself and my feelings and my choices is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. And I don’t know that it gets easier. Only that it’s necessary in order for me to be who I desire to be.
The trenches of life are a very dark place. It’s the time when I wonder what’s the purpose of it all. I want to quit. I want to cry. And most of all, I don’t want to do the things I need to do to move forward, especially when it requires accountability. I made these choices. And I made my life like this. I’m in control. Facing that and then surviving it, that’s the journey of going through the trenches of life. I’m learning how to survive in the valleys.
I’m proud of myself for the sense of ownership I have accumulated from good choices. And I hope that as I continue to grow and evolve that I get better and better at this.
I have a mixtape coming and I’m so excited about it! It’s called #TheSultryMovement! You can find out more about it on the home page!
Thank you for reading!